Overcoming Suicide

Hey everybody! Merry Christmas Adam! If you don't know what that means, it means the day before Christmas Eve. Adam came before Eve, so we have Christmas Adam. Okay, now that we have that out of the way, welcome to Christmas week! I am writing you this week from my grandparent's house, where we are watching Hallmark movies and enjoying Christmas decorations. We officially have a new van! After Mom had her wreck a couple months back, we have been praying and searching for a new van, and we finally have one. It is so nice to not have to worry about shuffling cars anymore. I got to do something special this week. On Wednesday, I went to a local elementary school to deliver Christmas gifts for the students. They opened them yesterday at their class parties, and I wish I could have seen their faces while they opened them. I'm sure they were so happy and excited to open Christmas presents. Next week, I get to go back to the school and help decorate and set a room up for them. The

Hey everybody! I don't know what it is about this time of year, but it is just so magical to me. I love seeing the lights and ornaments on the Christmas tree, the fire in the fireplace, listening to Christmas music, and the joy that this season brings. It makes a lot of things seem better than they actually are. This week has been kinda slow, since school is out. I haven't done much except read, watch shows, and listen to Christmas music. My brother and I went to a friend's apartment on Monday, and we had a ball. There was so much laughter and fun, I swear people could hear us the next town over. Jennie came over on Wednesday, and we did a Marvel movie marathon. She hadn't seen Fantastic Four and Rise of the Silver Surfer yet, so we watched those and laughed a ton. She is such a fun person to be around. My grades were good this year, I got A's and B's, so that's always good. My trip to Florida and Wizarding World got postponed until next year, probably Sprin

Well, it's the end of another semester! Sorry about lack of post last week. I was studying for finals and getting everything set for the end of the semester. This past week has been pretty good. I passed all my classes with A's and B's, so I am happy about that. My shoulder has been acting up for the past few days, and I currently have it braced to try and help it heal. Thursday night, Bridey came over. We watched Spiderman Homecoming, and it was so fun to hang with her and celebrate Christmas with her. Friday, I helped another friend of mine move, and we had a blast. Why people let the two of us hang out together, I will never know. Christmas break is here, and I hated saying goodbye to my friends. For a month. I hate when people leave, so I can't wait until the break is over. I have been practicing songs on my ukulele, and I am getting pretty good. I can play 20+ songs currently. My favorites to play are "Long Live" by Taylor Swift, "Brave" by Sara

Hey beautiful humans! Guess what time of year it is!! 😍😍😍😍🎅🎄🎄🎄 IT'S CHRISTMAS!!!!!!! Christmas is my favorite time of year, if y'all can't already tell. I just love how magical the season is. This week was decent. Thanksgiving was okay. I have had a lot going on, between homework and trying not to stress about my actual TExES exam. I am taking it in the spring, so here's hoping I pass. Today we got the Christmas Tree. It is so big and pretty and I love it. I can't wait to sit in front of it with a fire in the fireplace and a Christmas movie on the TV. I'm still practicing my ukulele, and I now can semi-play at least 7 songs. I am really proud of myself. Guys, it's almost December. 2017 is almost over! How crazy is that? It is also really close to my trip to Wizarding World of Harry Potter with Corinne! I can't wait until I go. She is so special, and I don't get to see her often enough. My days have been pretty good. I have had my down points,

What's up crazy hoomans? I'm sorry for the lack of posts lately. Life has been crazy between tests, classes, work, and a multitude of other things. I have been practicing a lot of songs on my ukulele, and hopefully I can keep learning new songs. I am really enjoying having a creative outlet. I just can't figure out how to set my own lyrics to music. Anyone have any tips? If not, that's cool. My tattoo is healing nicely, and everyone is really liking it. I am really happy with the reactions I have gotten. I honestly was expecting more backlash from people, but I'm glad people have been open to it. Thanksgiving break is this week, and I am honestly not looking forward to it that much. I know that Thanksgiving is a time to be thankful, and believe me, I am thankful for a lot, but I'm also not ready for fights and people being negative towards me. Anyways, to the big news, I completely passed the practice TExES exam!!! How awesome is that?? I am really proud of myse

Hey guys! Sorry for the lack of post last week and the late post this week. I have had a lot going on. Last week was pretty good. I was busy with school, work, and a few other things. Last Saturday, James and I went on our yearly birthday lunch stuff, and I was able to get a new bookshelf, shoes, and a ukulele! I have been learning how to play it all week, and I know how to play "Someone to Lava" from the Disney short. I have gotten really good at it. This week has been crazy busy too. I did a thing yesterday. I got a tattoo. I am so happy with it, and the guy that did it was amazing. I am so thankful to Nikki for going with me and for letting me squeeze her hand. I still can't believe I did this. I'll put the picture down below. This week is going to be crazy again. Wahoo. Antyways, This week's song of the week is "Boomerang" by Anthem Lights, and "When You Go" by Celtic Woman. I'll have them linked down below. Have a great week y'all!

Hey everybody! I am officially 21 now! This week has been amazing. Starting off with Fall Break, and a surprise visit with Kelsie, was definitely a great way to begin. We all went out for dinner on Sunday night to Red Robin for Bridey's birthday. It was so much fun to sit and talk and celebrate Bridey. Monday night, I went to Bridey's to watch a movie, and we were joined by Rachel, her suitemate. Tuesday, I did homework and relaxed at home. Tuesday night, we did a family birthday celebration for me, AJ, and Aunt Sabrina. We had dinner and opened presents, and it was so much fun. Mom and Dad got me a Billow by Eno, and it is the most comfortable thing ever. Wednesday was my actual birthday. Classes went well, I got to wear a tiara, and dress up like Hermione. It was so much fun. I got to have lunch with Mom, and then after classes Bridey and I met up and got some drinks from The Hive. Then, we went to her room, where she gave me a copy of John Green's new book "Turtles

Well, hello beautiful humans! I've missed y'all this week! I have been a busy bee. Wednesday was Bridey's 21st birthday, and it was my last day of Learning Lab. I'm gonna miss Learning Lab. It was my favorite part of the week. Anyways, the countdown to my birthday has begun, and we only have 4 days left! 6 until the Bonfire Bash that Bridey and I are throwing. It is gonna be so much fun. Tuesday, Bridey and I celebrated her birthday because we didn't know if, when, or for how long we would be able to see each other on her birthday. She got to open her presents, and she loved them! Seeing the look on her face when she pulled out each gift made it all worth it. I love celebrating birthdays. It is also the scariest time of year! Yay for nightmares! 😒 Not. I have already been pretty traumatized this season of scariness, so I'm not looking forward to the rest of the month. I will more than likely end up hiding in my room crying at some point. The nightmares have com

Hey everybody! This week has been rough. Monday started the week off with a panic attack (yay me!!! Not😒). So that was fun. But I got to have lunch with Lissie and Micah, and that was so special. I hadn't seen her in such a long time, and it was nice to just sit and catch up Tuesday was a string of not so great things, so that was a rough day. But I had lunch with Bridey, and we got to talk some things out. Wednesday was semi-okay. I got to have dinner with Martha, so that was a plus. It is always so nice just to sit with my friends and relax. Thursday was decent, so that was nice. And then there was last night. I have talked to my friends about what happened, and I'm still feeling very emotional, so this post will be short. But I wanted to share a couple of songs that I have been obsessed with lately. The first is called "I'm Still Here", and it's from the Jem and the Holograms movie. It talks about how, even after all that someone has gone through, that the

Hey everybody! Sorry for being AWOL these past two weeks. So much has happened in my life! Holy Hannah! Anyways, These past couple of weeks have been crazy busy. Last Saturday, we had the LeTourneau Life Lap. That was a lot of fun, and we had a great turn out! I also managed to re-sprain my already sprained ankle that day, so I was in a lot of pain. This week has been up and down. Yesterday was a bad day for multiple reasons. Let's just say my friends knew something was wrong and they were super helpful in being there for me. Lissie was especially helpful by listening to me as I was sobbing and telling her everything. (Thanks for letting me steal your wife Micah 😉). There has been a lot of hurt and fighting and such these past few weeks and I don't know how much more I can handle. If you think about it, please be praying for me. I need God right now and I can't do this by myself. So yeah. I am working the Neal McCoy benefit tonight at Belcher, so that should be fun. This w

Hey guys! Sorry for the late post, but this week has been CRAZY!!! Oh my lord it has been crazy. Last Saturday I took my TExES exam, and I just about lost my mind. Well, Wednesday I got my results. I passed 2 of the 5 tests!! I actually passed some! This came as a huge surprise to me because I didn't think I was going to pass any tests. So, yeah. That was a good thing. Monday, I got to have lunch with Martha, which was such a blessing. She and I have been running in such different circles that it has been hard to really spend some time together, so it was nice to have lunch and talk. Tuesday, I got to start a Bible study with Bridey! The two of us are going through a book together, so we can keep each other accountable and to spend time in the Word together. I have been enjoying it so far, considering we have only done one lesson. The rest of this week has kinda passed in a blur. I'm still keeping busy with work and classes, so I am slowly losing my mind.😜 This coming Saturday

Hey everybody! Sorry this post is late. I have been so busy between school and work and all the other things. I have had a lot of really good days. My girls came back, school started, work started, and I have been keeping busy. I took the practice TExES exam today, and my brain is fried. I am so stressed about how I did, and I didn't sleep well at all last night. This week was also full of friendaversaries. Thursday was Bridey and my 2 year friendaversary, Friday was Nikki, Jessi and my friendaversary, and today is Lissie and my 3 year friendaversary. I love my girls and I am so blessed to have them in my life. I also went to a Rangers game with my dad a couple of weeks ago, and it was a ton of fun. I love going to games. Last night, Nikki and Jessi came over for dinner and to play Harry Potter Clue and other stuff. This week, I also started my field experience at Trinity, and that has been fun. The teachers have been so nice and I am happy that I have been able to observe there. S

Hey there beautiful humans! How have y'all been! I am sorry about the lack of posts. There have been a lot of things going on. Firstly, I was traveling back from Lissie's wedding! That was so much fun. I was honored to have been a bridesmaid and to stand with her on her special day. I made so many memories, reaffirmed friendships, and formed new ones. I had the time of my life. Seeing Kelsie was also a plus, since she is gonna be at Disney this fall. You go Kels! Know we love and miss you sweet girl! Last week was rough. I just want to say something to y'all. Words hurt. There have been some things said to and about me that have made me feel...worthless. One thing said that I was not going to heaven and Jesus would not love me if I killed myself. Another said that helping people with depression is like giving them a gun, and that they should just be loved to Jesus and that would be okay. Um, no! One of the things I deeply depend on is my friends and family to help me throug

Hey beautiful humans! How are y'all? I'm doing okay, it's been a crazy week. Next week is gonna be super busy, and there will be a late post because I will be traveling! Crazy right? Anyways, this week consisted of work, car stuff, sleep, movies, and trying not to freak out about stuff. I'm still dealing with trauma and such, so prayers would be appreciated. I have added something to my nightly routine that seems to be helping me sleep. I have been drinking Sleepytime Tea by Celestial Seasonings. It has been something to help me relax after a long day, and it has been helping me fall asleep and such. Tonight is the Balloon Race here in town, so I am gonna grab AJ and head over to see the balloons and to spend time together. She is also staying the night so we can have a sleepover before I leave next week. I'm really excited. Next week I am going to Lissie's wedding in Michigan, so Bekah and I are leaving Tuesday and we will be back Sunday. Prayers for safe trave

Hey beautiful people! I'm back! Thank you for being so patient while I took a mental break to gather my thoughts and everything. A lot has happened in my life since I wrote you! I have been doing a lot of working, and trying to keep my head on straight. I went to Colorado for my dad's parent's 50th anniversary, and I was sick the entire time. That was no fun. I also realized that I cannot live in the mountains because of how my body handled the elevation, which was not well. A couple of weeks later, I went down to Bridey's, and that was so much fun. We went shopping, where I got my wand for when I go to Wizarding World in December, some Lego sets, and some books. It was so much fun to spend the weekend with Bridey and to see where she grew up. The day before I left for Bridey's, I had a bit of a scare. I won't go into it, because I am still dealing with it. Just know that I am okay and trying to live my life normally again. My next trip is to Michigan for Lissie

Hey there everybody. I'm really sorry for the inconsistancy in posts lately. There has been a lot going on. As of right now, I have no computer. The motherboard on mine decided to die on me, which was very rude. There is also a lot going on in life right now, such as trips and unexpected situations. So, for right now, I am taking a hiatous from the blog. I need to take an emotional break and get everything reoriented in my life right now. This break should only be a few weeks, until I can get my new computer. I am working as much as I can and saving up to I can get a reliable computer. I love each and everyone of you, and I'm so thankful that you have joined me on this ride. I will see y'all in a few weeks. Stay Beautiful! Marlee

Hey everybody! Sorry for the lack of post last weekend. I'll explain in a little bit. So, y'all know that Faithy came down to visit me. Oh. My. Glob. It was so much fun to see her and to hang out with her for a few days. Thursday, we drove back from Dallas, and got back at around 12:30 am. Friday was Longview day. Faith, Lissie, and I went to LeTourneau, where we showed her the school. After that we went to the Longview Mall and Wet Pets and Critters. Faith loved seeing all the animals. We then went to Target to help Lissie find a swimsuit. That took a while, but it was fun none the less. Saturday, we went to Build a Bear in Tyler. Faith made an Eevee and I made a Pikachu. Faith then found a candy store. As if she needs any more sugar. After leaving Build a Bear, we drove to Ft. Worth to go to the Stockyards. On the way there, we hydroplaned and spun out on an exit. I have a sprained wrist, and whiplash. The car is fine. Faith is fine. God really protected us. We didn't hit

Hey lovelies! As you can tell by the title, the countdown has begun. Faith will be here in 5 days. FIVE DAYS PEOPLE!!!!! 😄😄😄😄😄😄😄😄😄 I can't tell you how excited I am to see her and to be able to spend time with her. I just. I can't. I can't. Next week's post will probably be on Sunday instead of Saturday because Faith and I will be on the road and such all day. Sorry in advance! I am so excited to see her. Don't worry. There will be plenty of stories a photos to go along with the post. I am also counting down until the days I go see Bridey, when Lissie gets here, and Lissie's wedding. This summer should be great! This week has been okay. I had work, babysitting my cousin, and my parents came home from Brasil. It was so good to pick them up from the airport and to see them again. Work has been good. They've been keeping me busy, which is a good thing. I like being busy. Anyways, nothing huge happened this week, so this post is gonna be shorter. Emotio

Hey lovelies! Sorry for the lack of post last week. I had work all day. Two showings of The Little Mermaid Ballet. It was pretty good. That week was really slow. The most I had done was pick up AJ from school and we went shopping. It is always so much fun to hang out with my girl. This past week I started work at the Margaret Estes Library at LeTourneau. I work from 8am-1pm, and I am loving it. It is so much fun to be working and to have fun coworkers. Tuesday night, I had another show. It was Celtic Woman. Oh. My. Freaking. Glob. I have a new obsession. If you haven't listened to them, I would highly suggest doing so. The harmonies are beautiful. My favorite songs by them so far are Mo Ghile Mear, Tir na nOg, Amazing Grace, and Walk Beside Me. Jennie worked the same show, and she had never heard them before. She was amazed. It's so fun to have someone to obsess with. The entire show, I had chills and goosebumps. As of right now, there are 12 days until I see Faithy!! We are bo

Hey lovelies! I am so sorry for the lack of post these past couple of weeks. First it was Dead Week on campus, so I was getting assignments figured out, and then it was finals, so I was studying! I feel bad about not posting, so I am very sorry. Anyways, these past couple of weeks have been rough. Dead Week was stressful, and then I had to say goodbye to my friends this past week. I am sad about seeing them go, but I have a lot of stuff to look forward to this summer. I have been relaxing most of the past couple of days. One of my friends got me a Stitch pillow pet this week. Oh. My. Glob. He is so freaking soft and cuddly. I love him a lot. I also got a song this week. It's called "Barricade" by Gentri. Their harmonizing is so amazing and soothing to my soul. The song itself is so meaningful to me.  You push away, but I'm not listening. You hide your face, but I can still see someone trying not to break her barricade. Just say the word, and I'll be waiting, to

Hey you beautiful people! Bet you thought I forgot all about y'all huh? Nope! Just a late post day. This week has been a crazy busy week. Mostly yesterday and today. I've been somewhat sick again, so that's been throwing a kink into my schedule. But, I powered through it. Yesterday was Passover, and that was a whole lot of fun. We had a bunch of James's and my friends over to celebrate. It was such a fun night being able to laugh and talk with people. Bridey stayed the night, and today we went shopping! So much fun! We went to look for my dress for an upcoming event, and we found it at the first store, first dress. How awesome is that! I have been thanking God all day because I was so stressed about finding this dress. I also got a pair of Converse for half off, and that made my heart happy. We then just went around the mall and shopped and window shopped. It was so fun just to be with Bridey and have some fun.  After we finished, we came back to the house and made lemo

Hey guys. So, I have come across this new show on Netflix called "13 Reasons Why..." and it has been all over my Facebook and YouTube as well. I am going to be honest. I don't like this at all. As someone who struggles with suicide, I can personally attest to the feelings that go along with dealing with suicidal thoughts and why I have them. But blaming others? That is definitely not okay. By killing yourself, you are already making a huge impact on those you leave behind. They are all going to feel guilty about your death, and that they didn't try harder. I honestly thing that this is a horrible thing and I don't want it around. Bridey said something to me a while ago and it has left a huge impact on me. I was in one of my dark places, and she said that if I did kill myself, I would be projecting my depression and pain onto her and my other dear friends. With this making such a big deal, I want to tell you 13 reasons why I haven't committed suicide yet.  Re

Hey guys! This week has been crazy. It started out okay, with a bunch of rough stuff at the end. Mostly, the two highlights of this week were the fact that I got a 1980s electric typewriter, and Faith sent me a freaking goat. A FREAKING GOAT!!!! It is so cute, and I literally can't even. Then, yesterday happened. I was feeling okay up until about an hour before Hootenanny. Then, I got to feeling so sick. Like, worse than how it used to be. I've been feeling so good, other than the occasional blood sugar drops, but yesterday felt like it used to be. So, I went home sick and couldn't go to the one thing I have been looking forward to all semester. I feel really bad because I convinced Bridey and Kelsie to go with the superhero theme, and I couldn't go. I'm still not feeling the greatest, so I couldn't go to Bridey's scrimmage today. I'm trying to rest up today and get to feeling better so I can go see Beauty and the Beast tomorrow! But I've been kinda

Hey everybody! How was y'all's week? Mine has been an emotional roller coaster. Like, it's been insane. The past couple of days have been pretty okay tho. Physically, I'm doing well enough. My body is definitely worn down from this semester. I need so much sleep it's not even funny. But today has been relaxing. Today I saw a pic that made me think. It's so true tho! I love the humans that I have chosen tho.  Firstly, there's Bridey and Kelsie. My goodness, these girls. I cannot express my gratitude to them for all the times I have invaded their dorm room, to hang out, to talk, or just to be. They opened up their room and their lives to me, and I will forever be thankful. Both of these girls are so much fun, and I can't wait for all of our adventures to come. Then, of course, there's Lissie. This girl has been with me through all of my ups and downs for the past two years, has listened to me rant about anything and everything, and has g

Hey guys! This week has been really slow and kinda lonely. I don't like Spring Break. I know everyone had a blast being home or wherever they were. Breaks just make me feel stuck because I can't really go anywhere. I've been writing lesson plans and watching a lot of movies. Like, it's ridiculous. I got all my lesson plans finished, so that's a thing. I am looking forward to get back into my routine next week and be able to have things normal for a while. Oh! Bonus! I successfully kept 8 fish and 2 plants alive this week. Even though Amie Grace tried to eat one of the plants. Sorry Jordan. My house has basically been an aquarium this week. Which I am totally okay with. Oh! I finished the Lunar Chronicles! Oh my freaking glob. If you haven't read them, you NEED TO LIKE RIGHT NOW!! I am completely obsessed. It's basically a mix of of fairy tales, the Terminator, and Star Wars. Which, you know, makes an awesome series. I ordered the graphic novel, Wires and Ner

Hey guys! How was y'all's week? Mine was okay. Wednesday was probably one of the best days. I found out that I don't have to take the TSI! I was really scared about taking another standardized test because of the math section. I didn't do well on the math sections on the ACT or SAT, so I was freaking out. Like, a lot. Just ask Bridey. But, they are going to use my grades from my Comp classes, my lit class, and my math classes to get me into the education department. That made my day. Literally. I did not want to take the TSI. I'm still freaking out about it. This coming week is spring break. I don't like spring break. Most people left yesterday, and some are leaving today. I am watching 8 fish and two plants. I have Jennie's 4 goldfish, Kendal and Izzie's 3 goldfish, and Bridey's beta fish. My house is turning into an aquarium. Cinder is having fun having all the friends over. Work and my classes have been good, crazy, but good. I'm kinda sad tod

Hey everybody! This week was really crazy. I was still on a bum knee for a lot of it, so that's a thing. Thursday was really fun. The education department had a Dr. Seuss theme day because it was Dr. Seuss's birthday! LeAnne and I were Thing One and Thing Two. I'll put pics down below. Math is stressing me out a lot. Like, you have no idea. I don't understand a lot of it and most of the time I can't finish my homework because of it. Nikki is tutoring me, and it helps some. I just. It's not enough. I need more help because I don't understand anything and when I do the homework, there's really no help from the book or in the "hints" that they give. I am more than likely going to fail this class, and, at this point, I don't even care. So, that's a thing. The rest of this week has been pretty good tho. I guess. I'm really exhausted, so that's taking a toll on my body. I am ready for Spring Break and all the sleep I'm gonna get.

Hey everybody! How are y'all? This week has been really full of adjustments in my world, so I've been dealing with a lot of emotions. I'm gonna be okay though. This week has been super crazy too. Monday we had no school, so I was able to go to Nikki and Jessi's to color. That was so much fun and so relaxing. I really enjoy spending time with the two of them. They are both so much fun and know how to make me laugh in just the right ways. School continued on in craziness style. I had a math test on Wednesday, and I don't know how, but I managed to make a 94 on it. So, I guess that's a good thing? I dunno. Nikki definitely has a part in me passing this class. She has been such an amazing help to me, and I am forever thankful for her. Last night was really great too. Bridey and I had a date night. It was so good to have her at the house for dinner and a movie. Honestly, I don't know where I would be without my girls. They have been one of the biggest reasons tha

Hey everybody! These past couple weeks have been rough for me. I'm sorry for not posting last week. I was in an immense amount of pain and then I got sick, so I kinda forgot about y'all. These past two weeks have been crazy! School has been going as well as can be, with all the craziness. I have to say, the highlights of my week these days have been working in Learning Lab with the littles on Wednesday. That is always so much fun for me because I have a heart for littles and I want to love on them for as long as I can. I had, quite possibly, the best Valentine's ever. Like last year, Bridey was my Valentine, and it was good to just relax and watch a movie with her. I have been listening to a song lately called "Chasing Cars" by Snow Patrol. I absolutely love this song and how much feeling and love there is in it. The lyrics of the chorus really have a special meaning for me, because some days I just want to lie down and forget the world for a while. I'll link

Hey everybody! This week has been totally crazy. Oh my glob, so much has happened. On Sunday night, Lissie got engaged!!!!!!😁😁😁😁😁😁😁😁😁Forgive me if I'm dead. I knew this was gonna happen at some point. Lissie also has been teaching me how to make Alaskan Suncatchers. I'm still working on mine, so I'll post pics when I finish it, which should hopefully be soon. Last night, Bridey and I went to my homecoming at ETCS. That was a lot of fun. I got to see so many people that I haven't seen in forever. I also felt so bad for Bridey because she didn't really know what was going on and I was going crazy saying hi to people. It was so good to be back and to see people. The funniest thing was, most people didn't recognize me! It had been so long since others had seen me, and they didn't realize how much I had changed since graduation. I was laughing the entire time. The game was super intense. The last 5 minutes were insanely crazy, and we ended up losing by 2

Hey everybody! This week was really rough. As all of you know, I've been struggling with anxiety and panic attacks a lot this year. This week was probably the worst it has ever been. On Monday, I was triggered by some things the speaker in Chapel said, and I went full blown. I couldn't hear, see, or feel Bridey and Allie as they were trying to bring me back. I realized that when I start having a panic attack, I need to focus completely on calming down instead of trying to focus on two things at once. The things I saw while I was in the state of panic were horrifying, and you guys don't want to know about any of them. It took about an hour for Bridey and Allie to get me calm and talking again. After that, I was kept close. That was a very good thing, because I was still having a rough time with what I saw. Bridey and I ended up playing "Real or Not Real", like Katniss and Peeta did at the end of "Mockingjay". It really helped me to sort out my thoughts on

Hey everyone. Okay, I know I have posted about new music, like, a million times by now, but I am so excited about this new music! I finally got Bryan Lanning's debut album "Us"! Oh my freaking glob. I have no words for it. It is so amazing and perfect in every way. Infinite amount of stars out of 5. The music is so much more personal on so many levels and you can relate to it so much more. I am so beyond happy to have it on my phone. It has been playing almost nonstop since I got it on Thursday night. I'll link the video preview below. Anyways, in other news, I somehow made the Dean's List at school. Don't ask me how I did it, because I don't know. I'm still in shock. This week has been super crazy. Monday there was no school, so I hung out on campus that day. I fully intended to do homework. Yeah. Didn't happen. Oh well. I start work next week, so hopefully that'll help me out some. This week has been pretty uneventful. Just a lot of school an

Hey everybody! This week was crazy! It was the first week back at school, and I'm already swimming in homework. Not really swimming, but I have a lot. I have been feeling a lot of heartbreak and stress this week, and I can feel the toll it's taking on my body. I am totally and completely exhausted. Chapel on Monday was really hard for me. One of the pictures brought back feelings from a dream that I had that was really horrible and emotional for me. Needless to say, I was shaking and sobbing after chapel, and everyone was worried about me. There has also been a couple of bugs going around campus. So, I have had to wear a mask to keep me safe. I don't want to get sick and have to catch up like I have been doing. Classes are going well so far. I love all of my professors, especially education professors. I am taking College Algebra this semester, so I have a tutor for that class, and so far I haven't had any significant struggles. Amie Grace is doing well, just sleeping a

Hey everybody! Sorry about the lack of post last weekend. I was with my dad's family, and I was pretty sick. So, hence the lack of post. This week has been pretty good. Wayco came home for a few days, and it was nice to have him home. He left today, so it's kinda sad. On the upside, dorms opened today on campus, so all my friends are coming back! Yay! Bridey, Lissie, Nikki, Jessi, LeAnne, and all them are coming back today and tomorrow. I'm so over the moon excited. I've been ready for this day since before the break started. I have been listening to this song for the past couple weeks, called Someone Else by The Jellyrox. I'll have it linked down below. The lyrics to the chorus go like this:  "Sometimes   I wake up wishing I was someone else.  In a different circumstance, with a different set of plans.  And I feel just like the world expected someone else.  Well I just wanna like what I see.  I just wanna like being me" Honestly, that's how I feel