Words Hurt

Hey there beautiful humans! How have y'all been! I am sorry about the lack of posts. There have been a lot of things going on. Firstly, I was traveling back from Lissie's wedding! That was so much fun. I was honored to have been a bridesmaid and to stand with her on her special day. I made so many memories, reaffirmed friendships, and formed new ones. I had the time of my life. Seeing Kelsie was also a plus, since she is gonna be at Disney this fall. You go Kels! Know we love and miss you sweet girl! Last week was rough. I just want to say something to y'all. Words hurt. There have been some things said to and about me that have made me feel...worthless. One thing said that I was not going to heaven and Jesus would not love me if I killed myself. Another said that helping people with depression is like giving them a gun, and that they should just be loved to Jesus and that would be okay. Um, no! One of the things I deeply depend on is my friends and family to help me through the dark times, and they help by listening, by talking, by just being there and helping me make sense of what is going on around me. I am so deeply indebted to my friends and family for being there through the dark times. Never ever have I felt like they weren't helping me go darker. They actually help bring me back into the light and remind me who I am, not only as a human, but as God's child. Honestly, I wish people would think before they post. Or speak. Because words do hurt. They hurt a lot. I have been struggling with these words since I found them, and I just want you to know that each and every one of you are loved. I love you, because you take the time to read this, and because you support me. You have friends and family who love you. Even more importantly, God loves you. He will always and forever love you. Please remember you are loved. You have value. You matter. 

 Stay Beautiful.
Marlee

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