Someone Else
Hey everybody! Sorry about the lack of post last weekend. I was with my dad's family, and I was pretty sick. So, hence the lack of post. This week has been pretty good. Wayco came home for a few days, and it was nice to have him home. He left today, so it's kinda sad. On the upside, dorms opened today on campus, so all my friends are coming back! Yay! Bridey, Lissie, Nikki, Jessi, LeAnne, and all them are coming back today and tomorrow. I'm so over the moon excited. I've been ready for this day since before the break started. I have been listening to this song for the past couple weeks, called Someone Else by The Jellyrox. I'll have it linked down below. The lyrics to the chorus go like this:
"Sometimes I wake up wishing I was someone else. In a different circumstance, with a different set of plans. And I feel just like the world expected someone else. Well I just wanna like what I see. I just wanna like being me"
Honestly, that's how I feel sometimes. I just want to like being me. With all the bullying that plagued my years at ETCS though, it is hard to like being me. That's what got me made fun of. I was bullied for being me. It made me not like who I was, and wishing I was anyone else. I retreated further into my studies and my books, and didn't have a lot of friends. Thus, the book-loving and book-addicted Marlee began. Books were my safe haven, and my best friends. They didn't judge me for what I wore, what kind of music I liked, the fact that I couldn't play sports, and the fact that I loved school and wanted homework. Even now, I still run to my books. I love reading, which can be a good thing. But I've learned that I need to talk things out with people I trust, or my "safe people". You know who you are. Being able to freely express my doubts and fears, and be able to be me has been so different from the life I knew before. College is so different from ETCS. I am so grateful everyday for the people there who have drawn me out of myself. Some days, I still wish that I could be anyone else but me. But, I'm learning to live with myself and to love myself. Anyways, have a great week!
Stay beautiful!
Marlee
Someone Else
"Sometimes I wake up wishing I was someone else. In a different circumstance, with a different set of plans. And I feel just like the world expected someone else. Well I just wanna like what I see. I just wanna like being me"
Honestly, that's how I feel sometimes. I just want to like being me. With all the bullying that plagued my years at ETCS though, it is hard to like being me. That's what got me made fun of. I was bullied for being me. It made me not like who I was, and wishing I was anyone else. I retreated further into my studies and my books, and didn't have a lot of friends. Thus, the book-loving and book-addicted Marlee began. Books were my safe haven, and my best friends. They didn't judge me for what I wore, what kind of music I liked, the fact that I couldn't play sports, and the fact that I loved school and wanted homework. Even now, I still run to my books. I love reading, which can be a good thing. But I've learned that I need to talk things out with people I trust, or my "safe people". You know who you are. Being able to freely express my doubts and fears, and be able to be me has been so different from the life I knew before. College is so different from ETCS. I am so grateful everyday for the people there who have drawn me out of myself. Some days, I still wish that I could be anyone else but me. But, I'm learning to live with myself and to love myself. Anyways, have a great week!
Stay beautiful!
Marlee
Someone Else
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