Overcoming Suicide

Hey everybody! Today is one year since that night when I contemplated suicide, and led to writing this blog. This has been a crazy year, from school, to having to put my education on hold for my health, finding a job, making new friends, starting the new school year, and etc. To be honest with you, I didn't think I would make it this far, much less keep the blog going. It's been tough, and I've posted late a few times, but we made it, huh? Thank you so much for sticking with me and following me on my journey and showing your support. Today, I asked a few of my closest friends to draw a semicolon on their wrist to show their support. Just seeing those gestures and all the love I have gotten today reminds me why I do this, and why I'm still here. Even on my bad days. I am so humbled to have you guys reading this and telling me how you liked it and encouraged me. I told Bridey that I never thought I would make it this far, and she said she knew I would. Lissie told me she ...

Hey there everybody! This week has been pretty good, emotionally and physically. Knock on wood, because I don't want to jinx it. All of my classes have gone well this week, and I have been keeping my grades up, I hope...We'll see. I had my first Geology exam on Thursday, and even though I studied, I honestly don't think I did very well. So, we'll have to see how I do on Tuesday with the grades and everything. I've gotten to spend a lot of time with Bridey this week, which has been very nice. We have been sitting together in chapel and hanging out during free times. Friday night, Bridey asked me to come over to watch a movie because Kelsie was gone, and she wanted to do something with me. We watched Brave, which was really good. I started falling asleep during the movie, so I went home soon after. Last night I worked the Neal McCoy show at the Belcher Center. Boy, was that fun! There was a magician, Tracy Byrd, an animal show, and Neal McCoy. They brought a cheeta, a...

Hey everybody. Sorry for the late post. This week has been really rough on me, and I'm still having a hard time. Wednesday, I found out that a girl that I went to school with had died Tuesday night. Ever since then, my heart has been hurting for her family and I have been grieving. She was a special girl, and let her light shine. Everyone could tell that she was a Christian. She always made sure that she greeted you with a smile and asked how you were before you could get a chance to ask about her. She gave the best hugs, and was truly a blessing when I started at ETCS from being home-schooled. I was looking through my yearbooks from ETCS, and all these memories came flooding back. So, this week has been pretty rough, and I'm still having a hard time. I'll be okay in a while, though, so don't worry about me. Saturday and today would have to be the highlights of the week. Saturday we had college people over, and we got to swim. It was a lot of fun, and there were a ton o...

Hey everybody! Sorry for the late post. I had to deep clean my house, and then I fell asleep, and then we had a party celebrating Brasil's Independence Day. How's y'all's week been? Mine has been pretty good, actually. Physically I have been feeling better than normal, which, ya know, is great. But, I have been super exhausted. Like, falling asleep on my couch at 9pm exhausted. Emotionally, I have been okay. I haven't had any really bad days, and I haven't had any really good days. School has been going well, and I am getting good grades, so far. Which, we all know, I need right now. Wednesday, Bridey and I celebrated 1 year of friendship, and if you're friends with me on Facebook, you know that. It was a lot of fun just to celebrate her and the fact that she hasn't gotten rid of me yet. I wrote her a two page letter saying thank you and telling her how much she meant to me this past year. It was really good just to spend some one-on-one time with her an...

Hey everybody! As per the title suggests, I have been crazy busy, so sorry for the late post. Classes are in full swing, and I am doing okay, I believe. I haven't been feeling the greatest lately, so having to compete with my health has been a major downside. Other than that, I've been okay. Emotionally has been up and down depending on how I feel physically. Wednesday and Friday of this week are probably going to be the best days, other than college night on Saturday. Wednesday will be one year since I met Bridey, and Friday will be two years since I met Lissie! Crazy, right? I still remember both vividly, and yet it feels like I've known them forever. They both mean so much to me, and I don't know where I would be without them. So, if you two are reading this, which you most likely are, thank you so much for everything. So, since this week is meaningful to me, I would like to share how I met these two amazing girls. We'll start with Lissie, since I met her first. ...

Hey everybody! How are y'all this week? I'm doing okay, could be better. This was the first week of classes, and I am so completely happy to be back on campus full time. I have missed being able to be a normal student. Classes are going well so far, but it's only the first week. Math is going a little tougher, but then math has never been my strong subject. Health wise, I've been okay. Stress is kinda settling in, and I've been trying not to snap from it. Monday night was probably the hardest night. My friend texted me about a situation that she had been in, and it caused a panic attack. I fully believe that it could've been worse if Bekah, Lissie, Micah, and Bridey hadn't been there. This one was really bad, you guys. I couldn't breathe, I could barely talk, and I felt like I could've started beating myself. Thankfully, the Fantastic Four mentioned above helped me start breathing again and held me so I didn't start beating myself and got me talk...

Hey everybody! Hope y'all's week has been good. This week has been pretty good. I finished my last class this week, so that's a plus. I don't know my final grade yet, so I'm really nervous about that. I had a lot of anxiety about my test, and it took me forever to calm down. I'm still a little bit shaky, but I'm managing. School starts on Monday, so I'm super excited about that. I'm hoping that this year is better than last year. Like the title suggests, Lissie came back! I got to see her on Thursday night, and see her new room! That was super fun. I got to hang out with her, and take her to Walmart and help her unpack and just be with her. Talking with her was really good. She is wanting to come over tonight, but it's not for sure. Bridey has been doing pre-season, so she's been pretty busy and not able to talk a lot. But, I'm just happy my two girls are back. This week has been sort of a lazy week. I watched the entire Harry Potter seri...