Help Me Understand

"Jesus replied, 'You don’t understand now what I am doing, but someday you will.'" ~ John 13:7.

I don't understand a lot of things. Like, why God allowed me to deal with all these health issues, or why I can't find a job, or why I deal with depression and all of those things, or why I had to choose between my health or my school. It really frustrates me that I can't understand any of these things and that I am dealing with all of this. I know that He has a plan and a purpose, but it feels like there is nothing going on and that I am in a waiting period. I have been listening to the song "Waiting Room" by Jonny Diaz a lot. It kind of helps keep everything in perspective for me. I'll have it linked down below if you want to listen to it. Anyways, this week has been nothing short of disappointing, with the exception of about three hours on Saturday night. That's the reason for the late post, so, sorry about that. I'm only human. I took my final on Saturday, and I utterly failed it. Mom and dad think it was supposed to be open book, but I'm not sure that's how an online class final works. I've been feeling pretty much like a failure since then, and I know I'm not. Just how I'm feeling. I went to church today, which was good. It was nice to see people again. I really enjoyed myself. Summertime has taken on a whole new meaning for me. I have to have fresh lemons for my liver issues, so I make lemonade. Daddy got strawberries yesterday, so I had the brilliant beyond brilliant idea of slicing up a couple of strawberries and pouring lemonade on them. Hence, I have made strawberry infused lemonade, and it's fantastic. I encourage you all to try it. Juice 6 lemons, add 6 cups of water, about a cup of sugar, and pour over sliced strawberries. It's that simple! :) Michael and TC came over last night, and we watched Zootopia. I have been waiting to see it ever since the previews, and since Michael showed me the music video for "Try Everything", so I was pretty stoked. I love it, and have been asking my parents to get it for me, but with no success. Oh well. Anyways, that's all for this week. Have a good one lovelies!

Stay Beautiful!
Marlee

Waiting Room

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