Overcoming Suicide

Hey lovelies! As you can tell by the title, the countdown has begun. Faith will be here in 5 days. FIVE DAYS PEOPLE!!!!! 😄😄😄😄😄😄😄😄😄 I can't tell you how excited I am to see her and to be able to spend time with her. I just. I can't. I can't. Next week's post will probably be on Sunday instead of Saturday because Faith and I will be on the road and such all day. Sorry in advance! I am so excited to see her. Don't worry. There will be plenty of stories a photos to go along with the post. I am also counting down until the days I go see Bridey, when Lissie gets here, and Lissie's wedding. This summer should be great! This week has been okay. I had work, babysitting my cousin, and my parents came home from Brasil. It was so good to pick them up from the airport and to see them again. Work has been good. They've been keeping me busy, which is a good thing. I like being busy. Anyways, nothing huge happened this week, so this post is gonna be shorter. Emotio...

Hey lovelies! Sorry for the lack of post last week. I had work all day. Two showings of The Little Mermaid Ballet. It was pretty good. That week was really slow. The most I had done was pick up AJ from school and we went shopping. It is always so much fun to hang out with my girl. This past week I started work at the Margaret Estes Library at LeTourneau. I work from 8am-1pm, and I am loving it. It is so much fun to be working and to have fun coworkers. Tuesday night, I had another show. It was Celtic Woman. Oh. My. Freaking. Glob. I have a new obsession. If you haven't listened to them, I would highly suggest doing so. The harmonies are beautiful. My favorite songs by them so far are Mo Ghile Mear, Tir na nOg, Amazing Grace, and Walk Beside Me. Jennie worked the same show, and she had never heard them before. She was amazed. It's so fun to have someone to obsess with. The entire show, I had chills and goosebumps. As of right now, there are 12 days until I see Faithy!! We are bo...

Hey lovelies! I am so sorry for the lack of post these past couple of weeks. First it was Dead Week on campus, so I was getting assignments figured out, and then it was finals, so I was studying! I feel bad about not posting, so I am very sorry. Anyways, these past couple of weeks have been rough. Dead Week was stressful, and then I had to say goodbye to my friends this past week. I am sad about seeing them go, but I have a lot of stuff to look forward to this summer. I have been relaxing most of the past couple of days. One of my friends got me a Stitch pillow pet this week. Oh. My. Glob. He is so freaking soft and cuddly. I love him a lot. I also got a song this week. It's called "Barricade" by Gentri. Their harmonizing is so amazing and soothing to my soul. The song itself is so meaningful to me.  You push away, but I'm not listening. You hide your face, but I can still see someone trying not to break her barricade. Just say the word, and I'll be waiting, to ...

Hey you beautiful people! Bet you thought I forgot all about y'all huh? Nope! Just a late post day. This week has been a crazy busy week. Mostly yesterday and today. I've been somewhat sick again, so that's been throwing a kink into my schedule. But, I powered through it. Yesterday was Passover, and that was a whole lot of fun. We had a bunch of James's and my friends over to celebrate. It was such a fun night being able to laugh and talk with people. Bridey stayed the night, and today we went shopping! So much fun! We went to look for my dress for an upcoming event, and we found it at the first store, first dress. How awesome is that! I have been thanking God all day because I was so stressed about finding this dress. I also got a pair of Converse for half off, and that made my heart happy. We then just went around the mall and shopped and window shopped. It was so fun just to be with Bridey and have some fun.  After we finished, we came back to the house and made lemo...

Hey guys. So, I have come across this new show on Netflix called "13 Reasons Why..." and it has been all over my Facebook and YouTube as well. I am going to be honest. I don't like this at all. As someone who struggles with suicide, I can personally attest to the feelings that go along with dealing with suicidal thoughts and why I have them. But blaming others? That is definitely not okay. By killing yourself, you are already making a huge impact on those you leave behind. They are all going to feel guilty about your death, and that they didn't try harder. I honestly thing that this is a horrible thing and I don't want it around. Bridey said something to me a while ago and it has left a huge impact on me. I was in one of my dark places, and she said that if I did kill myself, I would be projecting my depression and pain onto her and my other dear friends. With this making such a big deal, I want to tell you 13 reasons why I haven't committed suicide yet.  Re...

Hey guys! This week has been crazy. It started out okay, with a bunch of rough stuff at the end. Mostly, the two highlights of this week were the fact that I got a 1980s electric typewriter, and Faith sent me a freaking goat. A FREAKING GOAT!!!! It is so cute, and I literally can't even. Then, yesterday happened. I was feeling okay up until about an hour before Hootenanny. Then, I got to feeling so sick. Like, worse than how it used to be. I've been feeling so good, other than the occasional blood sugar drops, but yesterday felt like it used to be. So, I went home sick and couldn't go to the one thing I have been looking forward to all semester. I feel really bad because I convinced Bridey and Kelsie to go with the superhero theme, and I couldn't go. I'm still not feeling the greatest, so I couldn't go to Bridey's scrimmage today. I'm trying to rest up today and get to feeling better so I can go see Beauty and the Beast tomorrow! But I've been kinda ...

Hey everybody! How was y'all's week? Mine has been an emotional roller coaster. Like, it's been insane. The past couple of days have been pretty okay tho. Physically, I'm doing well enough. My body is definitely worn down from this semester. I need so much sleep it's not even funny. But today has been relaxing. Today I saw a pic that made me think. It's so true tho! I love the humans that I have chosen tho.  Firstly, there's Bridey and Kelsie. My goodness, these girls. I cannot express my gratitude to them for all the times I have invaded their dorm room, to hang out, to talk, or just to be. They opened up their room and their lives to me, and I will forever be thankful. Both of these girls are so much fun, and I can't wait for all of our adventures to come. Then, of course, there's Lissie. This girl has been with me through all of my ups and downs for the past two years, has listened to me rant about anything and everything, and has g...