Overcoming Suicide

Hey everybody! This week has been okay. I'd have to say the highlight was going to my Aunt Vick and Aunt Meredith's house for dinner and smoothie making. I hadn't had that much fun all summer, and it was good to be out of the house for a bit and to hang with my family.  Emotionally, I've been doing pretty good. No depression or anything this week. I did have a panic attack on Tuesday, which, as we all know, is not good for me. Just to let y'all know some tips for being my friend with my anxiety: (1) reassure me constantly of our friendship because I am constantly scared I am going to lose you. (2) Tell me when you are on your way to my house or on you're home because I worry about your safety. (3) Give me hugs, tight ones because those help relieve my anxiety. (4) Take the time to identify my triggers, even though I more than likely have told you them because you will know how to help me. (5) This one is important, NO SURPRISES UNLESS YOU KNOW IT WILL MAKE ME HA

Hey everybody. Just a little update before I get to the heart of this post. This week has been okay, I suppose. Loneliness has set in, and I'm really missing my girls. They are all over Facebook, and I miss seeing them face to face. I started my second class on Monday, called Great Writers of the Western World. It's been pretty good, so far. I mean, I'm only a week in, but I'm liking it okay. The first couple of stories were morbid and creepy, but the work is not too bad. This weekend, up to Tuesday, I have the entire house to myself, and I get to be an adult and be me and blast music loudly and all hours of the day and such. I'm kinda excited about that. :) I still have had no luck in finding a job, and I got even more good (not) news on Monday. I have to have my wisdom teeth out. ASAP. So, I have an appointment with an oral surgeon on Thursday to set up surgery and stuff like that. Hoorah. I also get to go to my Aunt Vick's house Monday night for dinner. I'

"Jesus replied, ' You don’t understand now what I am doing, but someday you will.'" ~ John 13:7. I don't understand a lot of things. Like, why God allowed me to deal with all these health issues, or why I can't find a job, or why I deal with depression and all of those things, or why I had to choose between my health or my school. It really frustrates me that I can't understand any of these things and that I am dealing with all of this. I know that He has a plan and a purpose, but it feels like there is nothing going on and that I am in a waiting period. I have been listening to the song "Waiting Room" by Jonny Diaz a lot. It kind of helps keep everything in perspective for me. I'll have it linked down below if you want to listen to it. Anyways, this week has been nothing short of disappointing, with the exception of about three hours on Saturday night. That's the reason for the late post, so, sorry about that. I'm only human. I too

Hey everybody! Sorry about the lack of post last week. It completely left my mind with all the stress that I'm under. It's been four weeks since I started looking for a job, and I have had no luck. I have applied for at least 15 different places, and have not heard from anyone. I have a 400 dollar insurance payment due next month, so the pressure is getting worse. I feel like I am going to snap from all this pressure. I've already yelled at my family, and slammed my door and such. So, yeah. Not been the best past couple of weeks. There have been three good things that have happened in the past 14 days. One, I got to see my friend Zoey. She moved out of state two years ago, and I had only seen her once since then. She moved back this summer, and I surprised her at her job to say hi and catch up for a minute. Two, I went to the lake for the day. Now, I was feeling really sick all day, so all I did was sleep in a hammock, but it felt good to be out of the house for a bit. Thre