Where did this come from?

What's up everybody? Today was a pretty good day. I felt stronger emotionally and physically. Classes were not too bad, especially Geography (since it was canceled) :). I also had my Pro-Life group meet today, which was really fun! Those meetings are always great. I love my school. I can be who I want to be there, and ask for prayer and be able to find people to pray with. I also got to see the bestie! It's always fun to see her. During the day, a lot of people messaged me, approached me, or commented on the last blog. I really appreciated all your kind words and how you guys made me feel. I don't feel quite so alone anymore. I am going to try to be transparent on these blogs, but that may not always happen. I mentioned in the last blog all the things that have happened through the years, and I kind of want to talk about those. I was bullied at school, basically since day one when I arrived on the campus as a full-time school kid from home-school. I felt alone, and not really a part of the school. When I finally made some friends, I still struggled to fit in. I didn't really have a place because I wanted to follow the rules and always do what was right. I was also so self conscious about everything, from my body to what my friends thought about me. I eventually accepted that I couldn't fit in, and found my own groove whether people liked it or not. On my last day of school, I knew I would miss my friends.
Me and KK on the last day of school!

100% Senior Selfie!

Me and Jaelene on my last day at ETCS!

Senior Girls kicking butt!
I miss them and all the fun times I had. Another thing happened about 2 years ago. I got really sick, you know those 24 hour bugs, and I just never got better. That was really hard because I couldn't eat the same things as before. I just eventually stopped eating, and my friends had to almost force me to eat. I lost so much weight. Now, it totals to almost 50lbs.
3 Years ago on the left and this spring on the right.

I am starting to be able to eat more, mainly fresh fruits and fresh or steamed veggies, homemade foods, and soups. I miss being able to eat fast food, and things that I used to enjoy. All these things that happened were parts of my suicidal thoughts. I know that as I start getting help and support from friends and family, and asking God for help, I can overcome it. 
Love y'all!
Marlee

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