I Have a Confession

So, hey everybody! I know that this is kind of out of character for me, but I wanted to start a blog and keep it for my journey. I have been having suicidal thoughts since I don't know when. I have been doing really well considering all that has happened in the past few years. Then suddenly, I slipped. I was sitting in my 6:30-9:30pm history class, and I started contemplating and planning suicide. Let me tell you, after a year of not contemplating, that scared me. During the break, I texted my best friend, whom you will hear a lot about in my blogs, and told her what happened and that I needed to see her immediately after class ended. She replied with "okay". After class ended I went and found her, and I just sat in her arms and cried. I was feeling so emotional at that point. I was depressed because of what had happened, scared because I contemplated suicide, and just felt emotional because of classes and little sleep. I calmed down eventually, and after that I went home and just wanted to be alone. I know that I shouldn't have done that, but I did. There is this picture that I absolutely love, 

I want to make this my trademark. I want to let people know that I haven't ended my story yet. I know in time and with a lot of prayer that I can make it through. But for now, I'll tell you my ups and downs, what happens at school, and the adventures me and my friends have. So, will you come on this ride with me? Grab my hand, and let's go on an adventure of a lifetime.

Love y'all!

Marlee