Overcoming Suicide

This week has been the epitome of bad. I had to go to my follow up for my endoscopy, and we got news on the biopsy and the blood work that they took. Everything came back normal, for what they have found so far. So, we are back at square one. I have more new meds, and one of them knocks me out, and makes me groggy all day. Since we are still going to have to do testing, my parents and I have made the hard decision that I am going to withdraw from school for the semester to continue to find answers and try my medications to see what will and will not help. At this point, I am basically home bound because of the nausea and the pain. Add the grogginess to that list, and you have a day in the life of me. It was really hard to tell people that I was stopping school because of my sickness. I started crying when I told Bridey. Almost cried from telling everybody else. Today is when it really hit me, because Saturdays are when I'm gonna get to see people. Unless they come over during the b

Well, hey there everybody! I hope that your week was good. Mine, on the other hand, well, let's just say that a meteor crashing into my house would be a highlight. I have been home sick and in pain all week. I went to campus to take care of some paperwork and a meeting, but other than that, home has been my prison. Let me tell you, this is no fun. The best part of this week tho would have to be Wednesday. As most of my friends know, one of my favorite YouTubers came out with an EP called Like a Lion. I may or may not have listened to it multiple times. I absolutely love the songs and the message of the album. I highly encourage all of you guys to get it on iTunes or wherever you buy your music from. I have been trying to eat. It's been tough since I was diagnosed with lactose intolerance and gluten freeness. I realized just how much food I ate had gluten or milk in it, and it has been hard to find the food or motivation to eat. On the flip side, I am not taking my meds eith

Hey there everybody. Sorry I haven't written for a while. It's been a long, crazy past few months. Firstly, I turned 19. Crazy, right? I am really excited about what this new year will bring. Hopefully more answers for my health problems. I also had mid-terms, finals, Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Years. It was really hard saying goodbye to my friends for a whole month, but texting and FaceTime really helped me not feel so bad. I really enjoyed FaceTiming Lissie on her birthday, and Bridey on random days.  One scary thing did happen over the break tho. On New Year's day I was at my grandparent's house in Keller, and we were about to do Chase family Christmas. I got up from bed to go open presents, and I went unconscious and fell. I have been doing relatively well since then. I had an endoscopy on Thursday, and I am now lactose intolerant, and on a gluten restricted diet. We are still trying to figure it all out, but it's coming along. I also am down 60ish lbs s