Overcoming Suicide

What's up everybody? Today was a pretty good day. I felt stronger emotionally and physically. Classes were not too bad, especially Geography (since it was canceled) :). I also had my Pro-Life group meet today, which was really fun! Those meetings are always great. I love my school. I can be who I want to be there, and ask for prayer and be able to find people to pray with. I also got to see the bestie! It's always fun to see her. During the day, a lot of people messaged me, approached me, or commented on the last blog. I really appreciated all your kind words and how you guys made me feel. I don't feel quite so alone anymore. I am going to try to be transparent on these blogs, but that may not always happen. I mentioned in the last blog all the things that have happened through the years, and I kind of want to talk about those. I was bullied at school, basically since day one when I arrived on the campus as a full-time school kid from home-school. I felt alone, and not real

So, hey everybody! I know that this is kind of out of character for me, but I wanted to start a blog and keep it for my journey. I have been having suicidal thoughts since I don't know when. I have been doing really well considering all that has happened in the past few years. Then suddenly, I slipped. I was sitting in my 6:30-9:30pm history class, and I started contemplating and planning suicide. Let me tell you, after a year of not contemplating, that scared me. During the break, I texted my best friend, whom you will hear a lot about in my blogs, and told her what happened and that I needed to see her immediately after class ended. She replied with "okay". After class ended I went and found her, and I just sat in her arms and cried. I was feeling so emotional at that point. I was depressed because of what had happened, scared because I contemplated suicide, and just felt emotional because of classes and little sleep. I calmed down eventually, and after that I went home