Overcoming Suicide

Hey everybody! I'm sorry for the lack of post last week. It had been a crazy busy week and I was exhausted. Hootenanny went AWESOME!!! I had such a blast shifting mics and I didn't get hit in the face with a microphone. That was my biggest goal. I am so going to do that again next year. I also got The Greatest Showman on DVD this past week. Oh. My. Glob. I am still obsessed with it. I have watched it 2.25 times so far, and there will be many more to come. These past couple of weeks, I have been listening to a song by Anthem Lights called "Hide Your Love Away". I'll link to it down below. It has been my prayer lately, that I will hide my love away and wait for the man God is preparing for me. It has been hard these past few months, now that I know what heartbreak feels like. So, I am going to hide my love away and wait. God will bring him to me in His perfect timing. In the mean time, I am going to enjoy my friends and the stage of life I am in. The other song I wo...

Hey everybody! Oh my goodness. Who is loving this weather? It's so gorgeous outside and I am loving all the green! Anybody else? No? Just me? Okay. I'll just go enjoy it by myself. Just kidding. This week has been crazy busy, but really good. I have been able to get a lot of things done, and have been able to relax as well. Yesterday was the Tennis Tournament put on by Pro-Life LeTourneau. It was so much fun! Definitely the highlight of the week, other than Passover. I'm still doing well in my classes, and enjoying being able to have time where I get to observe in classrooms. It has been so much fun to be an education major. I can't believe that I'm gonna be a senior this fall! Holy cow! Soon, I'll be a real adult human thing. Still not too sure about that though. I think this post is going to be shorter because my billow and book are calling my name outside. I have been reading Renegades  by Marissa Meyer. I am loving it so far. Her other book series, The Lunar...

Hey everybody! I hope y'all had a good week this week. I did. It was so nice to be back in my normal routine and to be able to see peoples. Classes went well, and I enjoyed being able to hang out with my friends. There were a couple of rough days, just because my body has been so exhausted lately. I'm doing okay, emotionally. There are still some rough patches that need to be fixed, but I'm doing better every day. Next Friday is going to be really exciting, and I can't wait to tell y'all all about it. I'll leave it at that and leave y'all in suspense. I did something really huge yesterday. I went on stage during chapel to do a chapel announcement with a friend, and I was shaking like crazy. I was so nervous and borderline panic attack. But, it went well, even though I didn't say anything. I was able to complete the task, and I'm really proud of myself. I am still looking for a summer job thing, and I am hoping to have a couple of leads soon. I'll...

Hey everybody! Not a lot has happened this week. It has been Spring Break, so there has been a lot of sleeping on my part. I have also been watching movies, NCIS, YouTube, and many other things to pass the time. I'm so happy that it's almost over. I'm still working on trying to get a summer job, so hopefully that will come about soon. I'm also starting to find stuff for my first apartment when I move out after senior year. If any of y'all have any ideas of where I can find stuff for cheap or free, let me know! Yesterday, I was sick all day. That was fun. Not. I'm feeling better today, just a little foggy and after effects. Emotionally, I have been doing okay. I have my ups and downs, but mostly ups. School has been exhausting, so that's a thing. I have also been studying for my content exam all week, so hopefully I can be somewhat ready when I take it (I'm still not sure when that is, but I'll let you know). The two songs for this week are "The ...

Hey everybody! How's y'all's week hanging? Mine has been...Painful. Emotionally and physically. To start it off, Saturday I was dragged by a mini bike, and it pulled some muscles in my shoulder. I'm okay otherwise, but boy does it hurt. Then, Tuesday I had a panic attack in my first class of the day, managed to lock my keys in my trunk while at my observations, had to pay $40 to get them out, and generally had a stressful day. The rest of this week has been trying to recover from those two days. My shoulder is still out, but I'm hoping it'll be better sooner rather than later. This week is Spring Break, and I have nothing to do but study for my TExES exam, and sleep. I'm looking forward to the sleep part. Emotionally, I have been doing fairly well. I have been having mostly good days, with the occasional bad day thrown in just to spite me. I have been doing better at making myself okay when I have a bad day, and I have been proving to myself that I can do th...

Hey guys. Sorry about lack of post. I just needed some space after everything that happened. I'm doing better, and I have been trying hard to trust in God and know that He has a better plan for me. These past couple of weeks haven't been too exciting. Except yesterday. I managed to fight with a motorbike and loose. It was crazy. I'm okay, but my shoulder is a little banged up. I have been doing okay in classes, the stress is definitely starting to set in. I'm ready to just be done at this point. I have applied for a summer job at LETU to work the summer camps, so hopefully that will work and I can also get my field observations done when I need them done. Prayers for those two situations would really be appreciated. This week, my friend Corrine came to visit. It was so fun to see her and be able to hang out with her for a bit. We got to catch up and just be together. I was so happy that she came. Next week is spring break, so I probably won't be doing anything too e...

Hey everybody. These past two weeks have been really rough on me. Scratch that. This past month has been rough on me. My heart has taken a beating and it has been hard for me to recover. I'll be okay though. My boyfriend and I broke up on the 8th, and it has been rough on me. I have been kicking myself and really upset about everything, so that's why there was no blog post last week. This week has been healing and trying to be okay for me. I'm gonna be fine. I guess some things just don't work out. Please don't ask for details because I really don't feel like talking about it. On to other things, I have been really stressed as of late. School and work have been crazy, and I finally have my placement for my field experience (yay!) so I can go into the schools starting Tuesday. It's just been a lot lately, and I can't wait to be able to breathe again. Last night was the fundraiser for Pro-Life LeTourneau, and it was so much fun! I got to hang out with my f...