Overcoming Suicide

What's up everybody? This week has been slow at times, and super fast at others. I did something really big this week. I left my house! Oh, my gosh, right? Mockingjay part 2 was released on DVD Tuesday, and Mom said that I should be determined and go get it. Well, I did! I got that, Despicable Me, three pairs of shorts, and an Eeyore onesie! Then, I went to campus and surprised people with a visit. Bridey had to do a double take when she first saw me, and the look on her face was priceless! I also saw my PA, Emily, and it was so good to get to talk to her for a little bit. I then saw my Aunt Vicki, Kendal, Liz, Michael, Cat, Micah, and Jacob. It was so good to say hi and prove that I was alive, even though I'm getting smaller by the minute. I was worn out after that, and I got into my new onesie and did a Hunger Games movie marathon that didn't finish until 4 am. It was amazing. The next couple of days were recovery days because of my low energy, so I was just taking some t...

Hey everybody! Well, another week has gone by, and I am still feeling like a zombie. Sleep still doesn't like me, so yay for sleep deprivation! Not. The biggest thing this week was that I went to a nutritionist to see what she suggests to help me feel better. She had a lot to say, and some diet changes are in order along with some new supplements and herbs to try. The stuff should be in Monday, so that's when it'll start. We'll see how this goes. I've been re-reading Harry Potter again. I love reading, and the whole entire series just makes me happy. I was telling a couple of my friends (Lissie and Bridey) that I know everything about anything there is to know about Harry Potter. Every time a new post show up that has "new facts that you've never heard before", I laugh. I know them all. I'm weird like that. Bridey, Lissie, Micah and Michael came over tonight, and I was so happy. After not seeing them for two weeks, I was so glad to talk to them in ...

Hey guys! It's been kind of a slow week. At this point, I'm still having a hard time sleeping, so I feel like a walking zombie. Hence, the title. Everyone has been on Spring Break, so it's been kind of fun to watch all of their adventures on Facebook and such. I have been so grateful for texting this week. I have been texting Bridey and Lissie multiple times a day, for hours on end. I miss talking to them face to face, but this has been really good so I don't go insane. Another friend, Michael, came over and visited on Thursday. He is in the Pro-Life group on campus, and he stayed on campus over the break. I invited him for dinner and a movie, and we ended up discussing Harry Potter, Hunger Games, and other books and movies. It was really great to be able to talk about my passions and be able to share my passion with someone else. Yesterday, I was supposed to go to a doctor's appointment, but we got halfway there, I was feeling so sick and in so much pain, that I as...

Well, hello there. As you can probably tell by the title, I just want to be knocked out. Over the course of the past week or so, I have not been able to get any good sleep, and the past three days have been little to no sleep. Last night was a no sleep night. My emotions are all over the place, I can't think, I can't really do anything but want to sleep, which I can't do at this point. Hoorah for me. I have been extremely emotional, crying at the drop of the hat, or getting Hulk Smash angry at the slightest annoyance. I'm just so ready to sleep again. If you have any tips or suggestions, comment below, and I'll see about trying them. My mom has also discovered that my eyes have a slight yellow tint. Great. More health problems. I am going to be going to the doctor soon, according to my parents. But, soon could be next week or next month. I don't know. With my new diet, it's been kind of hard to find things to eat. The gluten free bread my dad got is only goo...

Hey guys! Wow. Is it already Saturday? I feel like all my days are just starting to blur together. This week has been okay, I guess. My mom's family came down on Wednesday so they can celebrate my Nana's birthday a month early. They have been out every night since then, so I have been home alone the whole time. Let me tell you, it hasn't been all that fun. Tonight, they are all at a party at Steve's house. Bridey came over on Tuesday to have dinner and a movie. I feel like that happens every week, which I love. I had fun that night, and my mom's oldest brother got to meet my best friend. I haven't been sleeping well for the past few days. I have been up until 4 or 5 in the morning, and then sleeping until noon or 1. I have had a short fuse, so it's been hard to keep my temper in check. It's also been affecting my emotions, so I am having a lot of mood swings. I'm so ready to be able to sleep again. This week has also been a week of musicals and hat m...

Hey guys. This week has been absolutely horrible, with the exception of Monday evening. Monday evening, Bridey came over, and we celebrated Galentine's Day. It was really fun. She got me the cutest fox EVER! I am absolutely in love with it and have kept it near me all week. I named her Lil' Bit because it's so little and for a personal reason. Dad came home with a bad bug last week, and I caught it. My immune system is down already because I have been sick for so long and homebound, so a simple cold lasted me until just about today. I'm still getting over it. It felt like I had pneumonia or something. I was not a happy camper. On top of that, I had to cancel college night because I am still getting over this thing, and my emotions have been all over the place. I have been really, really depressed these last couple of days. All day, all I have been doing is watching movies and playing video games because I have nothing better to do. I have absolutely no appetite, so I ha...

Hey guys. Sorry that this post is a day late. Yesterday was really bad as far as my health goes. I was having a hard time keeping my head up, and walking was a lot of effort. But, it was a pretty good day as far as emotions go! My friend Ellie, from high school, surprised me with a visit. We talked and got to catch up, which was good. She and I were really good friends in high school, and she was the first one to make me feel welcome at ETCS when I started there. To make the day even better, my parents, who were out on a date all day, came home with Lissie! I was not expecting that. I got to spend an evening with my best friend, which was nice. She helped me make pizza with a gluten-free pizza crust mix that my daddy found, and then she made cookies for her party that she went to tonight. We also watched MIB3, which, to be honest, is the weirdest one yet. I got a Valentine's day card from my grandparents this week. They sent me a gift card, and with it, I bought music. Such a surpr...